.. Just because I think I need to. My head has been in a kinda mess the last week. I’ve tried to clean my room (Which I barely do once a year and this time did I end up by using my whole Friday on that) and I’ve tried to get a kinda order in my old schoolbooks. I’ve tried to get my hand of letters, request and other stuff that I should have gotten a hand of for a long time ago. So now is it time to get a hand of my blog and write a new entry so my head can get some air.
My last entry was posted for about four weeks ago.. And a lots of thing have happened since then. The first thing was ”Desucon”. The norwegian anime/manga/japan -con that I talked about. So, I did go after all. And I don’t regret, at all. It gave me a whole new experience I never thought that I should get in the small country of Norway. Everyone there was just super-nice, and I felt that for the first time in my life were I truly accepted for who I was, not who I tried to be. It was one day I’ll never forget, and I can’t wait until next the next con. But it was first when I came out and everything was over, that I really started to think. Why is the world like that? Why is it that everyone, and I swear every single one inside that con was so nice and caring, and the moment I went outside the con was everything i saw just tired, grey people. Why is it that you can be yourself with people you’ve only meet some minutes before, but it takes several years before you can be yourself with others. Why is it like that? Why is it with todays society, why do everyone have to follow a pattern in real life outside the con, and if they don’t do this then they’re locked upon as strange or weirdos? Why people why? *Sigh* -End of questioning and rambling and ranting and everything about the con-
So there you have it, I just had to get it out. I just want people to think, why is it like that? If someone can give me a clear answer, please comment bellow.
But after all, my social life at school has gotten a lot better. People do still look at me as weird, and some people does probably think I’m childish, but the difference now is: I don’t care. Or it wrong to say that I don’t care, but I don’t care as much as I did before. Some things does still make me sigh and cry a bit when I come home, but it’s not happening as often as before. Like for instance, we’ve had a project at school where I was put in a group that should make an animation. When the guy that was on my group enjoyed to spend more time in the cantina than to help me animate, then I get really fed up and shed a tear once in a while. But there is no use to dig up in old stuff. That period is over, our animating is finished and it’s a chapter that’s completed. And you can see it here, if you’re interested: (Be aware that it’s in norwegian then, and that my voiceover is horrid.)
I guess that’s the end of this thread, I don’t want to dig or rip up in more things that have happened throughout the last weeks and days.
XD Okay, that was enough melancholy. I should probably make a series that were called ”’Hikeni no Yuutsu” (The Melancholy of Hikeni). I know I can probably be pretty whiny at some points, but sometimes do I just need to get it out. So I guess I’ll end it now. -A sound of a ending theme appears-
