A great thing happened yesterday! You know what it was? I suddenly – out of the blue, got this urge, this spirit to blog again! 0__o I have no idea what may have occurred this – but either way~ I love to say that I’m back.. and not dead!~ =D
Watashi wa genki desu, hontouni genki DESSUUUU!~ <3
or.. not really.. Watashi wa hountoni ”tired”! D:
A lot of things have happened since this February. I’ve started my second year at ”high school” – media and communication. I’ve gotten to know my class mates a lot better. I’ve ended up been addicted to translation – mostly translation anime OP/ED/Insets into Norwegian. And I’ve attended my second Anime/Japan/Manga convention.. ever *_* (The last thing occurred just recently – this weekend)
Right now, I’m online at skype – chatting with some friends about a school assigment before tomorrow – we’re going to make an debate-program, using our schools studio. ..we’re going to discuss the private life concerning media with a certain paparazzi-case in focus. Boring stuff.. Nice to have friends around ya!˙ (V)(^_^)
みんなも私を見ている!~ D;
Minna mo watashi wo miteiru!~ D:
Everyone will look at me!~ D:
*Dies*
..anyways, I’ll tell you guys how it went – maybe even post a video! 0.o
Seriously. I’m SO FED UP with school right now. Please, kill me someone. Or throw a rock at me so I’ll get a concussion or something. I NEED A BREAK! X__________X
Reason: The damn movie we’re making. First of I dedicated the whole last post to tell you why I was tired, but now I’m not just tired, I’m fed up. I’ve lost the faith in our project, the movie sucks like never before. (And it’s not even finished, I just know that there is no hope for it anymore) and I’m so sick of working with it. I need a break, I need some spare time.. I’ve not been able to catch my breath at all in two weeks or something because I’m so stressed….
So I’ll have to use my Saturday to travel to a class mate to work on the project. BAM!~ There, my whole Saturday disapeared to hell.. And like that wasn’t enough, my classmate lives on the countryside, so I’ll have to spend my day with two boys (My groupmates), two horses, dirt, cats, a lot of dirt. Alone. DAMN IT!
So excuse me. I’m just so angry now. Which is why this entry ended up like nonsense, excuce me. BYE!
…As you probably understood from the title. I’m damn tired right now. I should probably have been to bed and visited the country of dreams, (Though, I don’t dream that much anymore) but then I suddenly discovered that my last post was.. Well, it was last year. So I thought I should give people a small update on what I’ve been doing (I should be kicked in my ass for lazy blogging DX).. Like anyone really cares about me. x_X
The reason I’m tired can be summed up with one word: Filmmaking. Have you ever thought about how hard and how much energy you have to give away to make one? If you’ve never have, then let me tell you shortly about all the things you need to think about, do, fix to make one. It’s not really just to purt a camera on record and scream: ”Action!~”
First of, you need a script, then you need to find locations to make the movie (Which I used a whole Friday night on. And have you ever tried to be outside for five instant hours in Norway? In the winter. When a freezing wind almost knocks you down and you carry around equipment worth about 60.000 NOK, 8000 USD. Let me say that you won’t understad what I’m talking about, before you’ve tried it.) Then you had to spand another five hours outside again, to take pictures to out storyboard. Then you had to make a piece of paper for all the camera-directons and stuff, get actors, make a recording plan, make deals with film music creators and so on and so on. It takes FOREVER! @_@
AND THEN! When you finally have all that fixed, do you have to record the whole stupid shit! Which meant eight hours outside in the snow. We didn’t finish recoring yesterday before 01.00 in the night. Gosh!~ I think I’ve never been so tired. And then again, today we finished off at 23.30… Luckily we’ve finished the recording session now, everything that’s left now is the editing part (Which probably is going to be the hardest part…. XXX__XXX ;;_;;) But I won’t even think about that now, now I’ll have to relax for one day before we start that part..
Think about that next time you go to the cinema, it’s ALOT of work behind every single sound you hear, every single movement, every single piece of the movie.
The movie we’re making is basiclly a school assigment. As I’ve talk endeless times before I attend something called a kinda ”media”-class. Right now is the theme short-movie, and we shall make a movie with a limit of five minutes, which shall be send in to a national filmfestival for young filmmakers. Our theme is the traditional story everyone knows ”Little Red riding hood” with a modern twist. (Won’t say anything more right now, I’ll explain the plot later.) If we get a prize or get nominated will it be shown on national television @_@ Though, I doubt that will happend, the movie sucks.. DX But anyways XD We’ve finished our task…
So I’ll end this now. Need…. Sleep…. But I promise I’ll post the movies when it’s finished.
So sayonara for now!~ n_n
It’s almost one week since christmas and I’m wishing everyone a merry christmas NOW..? What’s wrong with me? XD No, but the truth is that I have not be able to write anything before (Yeah right, you just own no disipline to sit down and write it, admit it U_U) and I thought it would be nice to just make an quick update before the new year approves.
My christmas has been pretty nice, and pretty bad.. I think I basiclly can sum it up by saying: ”It had everything”. It started out nice: Christmas eve was nice (We celebrate Christmas the 24th in Norway in case you didn’t knew already..), I got to spend time with my family, (Which is basiclly just my mom, dad, me, my brother and my grandpa. But it’s not the quantity that counts is it? It is the quality..) we ate a lot of droolable christmas food (I was so full afterwards that I couldn’t sit down XD) and I got a lot of nice presents! I’ll list some of them here:
- Movie: The Mamma Mia
- Book: I en speil, i en gåte (Though a glass, darkly) by Jostein Gaarder
- Book: The Tales of Beedle the Bard by J.K. Rowling
- Book: Under en ny måne (New Moon) by Stephany Meyers
- Book: Kabalmysteriet (The solitaire Mystery) by Jostein Gaarder
– Lots of candy! *Drool*
– Two pyjamases
– Music: Which Witch (The operamusical) Soundtrack – West End Cast
– A bag for my Macbook
I think the best of them where the Which Witch soundtrack. It’s an amazing musical and should definitivly get a lot more attention throughout the world. It did premire on London west end in ‘92 or something, but it was shut down after two week, since most people thought: ”Hey, it’s from scaninavia, they only produce crap, let it blow to hell” or something like that XD I’m to lazy to write the whole story to the musical here, but if you’re intrested in it am I pretty sure it excists thing about it around the net! Anyways I’m so happy that my dad managed to get his hands on the soundtrack, I mean it’s from the early nineties, from a time I was barly born, and was only produced in a limited time.. WAHHA! I LOVE IT! So people anyone who enjoys musicals should look it up, some of the songs can be found on YouTube or at the musicals offical site: ”Whichwitch.com”.. Look it up! IT DESERVES A LOT MORE ATTENTION THAN IT GOT BACK IN ‘92!~
The rest of the christmas has been noisy, my brother/mom and I had been fighting quite a lot, but I think everything was calmed down now, we just need a small break from each other. And I just need some time alone (Which is really hard when the walls in our house is like newpapers, I can hear people breath on the other side XD).. So I guess that works as my last post from ‘08. Can’t wait untill tomorrow, I alway love new years eve; We’re going to a neighbour city to celebrate with some friends I haven’t seen in a while!
So a belated merry christmas from me, and a happy new year!~ *Sends up fireworks* 8D
Time to present what I’ve made today. First of I just gotta tell everyone that it’s no biggie. It’s just a clip from a norwegian children song, our teacher gave us, that we should add sound effects too and it was basically just to train our skills in mixing and to understand effects in Garageband. So that’s what we’ve done today. Mixed sound effects in a norwegian children song! Four hours! Can someone please help me to get this song out of my head..? XD
If you want to download the clip I did mix, can you do that here: http://www.mediafire.com/?yzodyihkhma
And please, if you’re going to listen do it with headphones on. Or good speakers. You’ll have to if you shall get the right sound, since I’ve used left/right based mixing.
(So you’ll understand why the sound effects are where they are.. 8D)
Translated lyrics: And grandma had a good time – She brought her knitting needles with her
And then she went out in the garden and sat down – on a hedgehog
She screamed so every man on the farm left their hayfork and their grids
And drove her down to Dr. Mo, who removed a lot of sticks! (Meaning the needles of the hedgehog)
Fun on the countryside,
Fun on the countryside,
We don’t have such things in the city! (No, we don’t)
Fun on the countryside,
Fun on the countryside,
We don’t have such things in the city!
”I’m sick of the day before I woke up”
”’I despise Tuesdays”
”Why can’t I skip school today…?”
”I regret getting up the second I sense it’s Tuesday”
All these quotes are sentences I’ve snapped up from my classmates during this day. And what is the thing that all these sentences have in common? I think you’ll get it, if you’re not complelty stupid. Basicly everyone in my class hates Tuesdays, and I’m probably one of them that hate the second day of the week the most.
I know I promised yesterday that I wouldn’t write any more posts about how ”miserable” my life is, or any more posts where I’ll complain about certian people or things. Well, this time I just can’t stand it! At least not this time. So I’ll break my rule, if so just for this post! I really need to tell you about my horrible Tuesdays!
”What is it that is so extremly wrong with Tuesdays then..?” You may ask. Patience. I’ll explain. My problem is that every Tuesdays starts with the same thing: Get up, hurry to school, boring school, go home.. This may seem like a normal day for most people, but for me it’s hideous! … ”And what’s the reason..?” You may ask. Well, you see. The reason is what ”Boring school” includes. I normally don’t think school is boring. It’s so much fun. Especially when we’re having ”Media” (A subject where the themes varies, but all of the themes has something to do with the media. This could be themes like: Sound, Ads, Photo, Radio etc.) Which we’re having every single day, except Tuesday. Do you sence a pattern?
The first thing we have is two hours norwegian. This is probably the worst way to start a day on. The teacher is boring, she is very strict and always seem to hand out papers where you get a bad great (She is extremly strict at the grades. I’ve never gotten as bad grades as she gives me.. -__-) All this things (Especially the grade-part) makes you feel pretty down, and the thought on the next class does not make it any easier.. It’s gym. I despise gym too!~ Probably because I suck at it: I’m the worst one in my class, and have cordination like a giraf that walks on stilts.. This makes me feel even more down, when I’m stuggling with the simlpest things that most other people think are ”Piece of Cake”. And as if that wasn’t enough, my stamnia is like a bread: Non-excisting. I always feel that I’ll faint in the middle of the class and when one and a half hour of pain (For both my body and my self-estim) is over am I one of the first to head towards the garderobe. After a quick change is it english. We’re having the same teacher in english as in norwegian, and that does not help much when I don’t like the subject in the first place. Don’t misunderstand, I love the english language. It’s just when I have to speak english in from of class, it doesn’t feel natural and when I’m on top up that has the first english since ”Petter Solberg” (Seach him up on YouTube, you’ll understand what I mean), then it’s no fun. The last class we’re having on Tuesdays is Math. Two hours of math! @_@ Do I need to say anything more…? At this point of the day have I most of the time reached a level of sleepines that gives me a big headache…
So there you have it. Every Tuesday is the same pain, and I’m always extremly depressed when I come home… No need to write page up and page up about it. Tuesdays just SUCKS! U_U
Now, excuse me, I’ll go to sleep. I need to be prepared for a whole day of ”Media” tomorrow! FUN! FUN! FUN! Wedensdays are actually quite the opposite of Tuesdays! So night (I promise I’ll give everyone a report if anything important happends, or post a sample if we make anything cool 8D)
Again, long time, no writing. So I figured out it could probably be nice with a small humble update from me. Including an excuce. I want to excuce for how I’ve used this blog in my last posts: To complain, to feel bad about myself and to just create my own melancoly. There is no use for people to read about how ridiculous I feel at some points. Another important point is that I feel the way I’ve expressed in my last blog extremly rarely. For the most time do I feel pretty good about myself, but at certain times do I feel so down that words can’t tell, and I’ve no idea why. And it’s at this times I tend to write in my blog, and therefor can I probably be seen as a pretty depressed person that doesn’t do or have anything fun in life. THIS IS NOT TRUE! And that’s why I’ll try to update my blog a bit often, and not only when I’m down. (Though I mean every single thing I’ve written in the prevoius posts, it’s just that I’m not always like that. Most of the time do I just like that in about one or two days a month..)
So that was my excuse. Time to write the update. Since last time, well, has nothing really worth mentioning happend in my life. Except that it’s soon christmas. I gotta say I LOVE Christmas; From my youth have I always loved it; The smells that it brings, the feeling! But as I’ve grown older do I almost feel that Christmas has merged into a small thing, that doesn’t mean so much to me at it did when I was young. But it could probably be the fact that I’ve grown older, and that I’m a bit tired of all of those things that I used to connect with Christmas at those days.
Another thing that has happend is.. SNOW! Okay, so it has not actually happend, but the snow is here. And then I don’t mean watery, cold snow that freezes to ice in the night. No, I mean snow! White, cold, soft snow! Like it’s suppose to be in christmas. So when I think about it, it doesn’t matter if we preper for christmas like I did when I was a child; The only thing that really matters is if it’s snow! Snow! SNOW!~ 8D
Oh, and by the way… They’re teaching us about sound at school right now. Which is über-funny!~ I love sound. We get to record our voices, try out new things and stuff, in school! And we also learn to mix the right way!~ LOVE IT! I’ll porbably post some samples here, when we’ve started making some. Of course it also brings with a lot of theory about sound like hertz and desibel, but that doesn’t matter at all! It’s so intersting that I suck in all the knowledge our teachers are trying to spread at once. I’m like a thirsty vampire! Watch out! 8D
Oh, and when I’m mentioning vampires! I’m reading Twilight (The book by Stephany Meyers) at the moment. I’m only halfway through it though, but when I’ve finished it will I declare a post to that subject.
For now, I guess this will work as an update from me, see you (or writes) later ^0^
.. Just because I think I need to. My head has been in a kinda mess the last week. I’ve tried to clean my room (Which I barely do once a year and this time did I end up by using my whole Friday on that) and I’ve tried to get a kinda order in my old schoolbooks. I’ve tried to get my hand of letters, request and other stuff that I should have gotten a hand of for a long time ago. So now is it time to get a hand of my blog and write a new entry so my head can get some air.
My last entry was posted for about four weeks ago.. And a lots of thing have happened since then. The first thing was ”Desucon”. The norwegian anime/manga/japan -con that I talked about. So, I did go after all. And I don’t regret, at all. It gave me a whole new experience I never thought that I should get in the small country of Norway. Everyone there was just super-nice, and I felt that for the first time in my life were I truly accepted for who I was, not who I tried to be. It was one day I’ll never forget, and I can’t wait until next the next con. But it was first when I came out and everything was over, that I really started to think. Why is the world like that? Why is it that everyone, and I swear every single one inside that con was so nice and caring, and the moment I went outside the con was everything i saw just tired, grey people. Why is it that you can be yourself with people you’ve only meet some minutes before, but it takes several years before you can be yourself with others. Why is it like that? Why is it with todays society, why do everyone have to follow a pattern in real life outside the con, and if they don’t do this then they’re locked upon as strange or weirdos? Why people why? *Sigh* -End of questioning and rambling and ranting and everything about the con-
So there you have it, I just had to get it out. I just want people to think, why is it like that? If someone can give me a clear answer, please comment bellow.
But after all, my social life at school has gotten a lot better. People do still look at me as weird, and some people does probably think I’m childish, but the difference now is: I don’t care. Or it wrong to say that I don’t care, but I don’t care as much as I did before. Some things does still make me sigh and cry a bit when I come home, but it’s not happening as often as before. Like for instance, we’ve had a project at school where I was put in a group that should make an animation. When the guy that was on my group enjoyed to spend more time in the cantina than to help me animate, then I get really fed up and shed a tear once in a while. But there is no use to dig up in old stuff. That period is over, our animating is finished and it’s a chapter that’s completed. And you can see it here, if you’re interested: (Be aware that it’s in norwegian then, and that my voiceover is horrid.)
I guess that’s the end of this thread, I don’t want to dig or rip up in more things that have happened throughout the last weeks and days.
XD Okay, that was enough melancholy. I should probably make a series that were called ”’Hikeni no Yuutsu” (The Melancholy of Hikeni). I know I can probably be pretty whiny at some points, but sometimes do I just need to get it out. So I guess I’ll end it now. -A sound of a ending theme appears-
I’ve spend the last week by watching the complete first season of Shugo Chara. First I gotta say I love that series, it’s brilliant. And I really enjoy the message it’s trying to send out ”Always believe in yourself and your dream”. I know it’s a pretty old cliche overall, especially in shojo-series, but I love the way Shugo Chara wraps it in. I love how the main characters in the series has in general one outside character and one character which are the real them (Represented by the Shugo Chara). It’s like they’re afraid to not fit in if they act like the real them or doesn’t have the confidence to act like themself. This really got me to start think. What if it had been like that in real life. That people had Shugo Chara’s that represented the real them that they hide deep inside themself. I wonder what my Shugo Chara would have been like then?
It would probably end up like a chara that wasn’t afraid to speak up at all, and just could live at 100% and never care about how people would look at you. Almost like how Amu’s ”Outside character” is, if you look away from the fact that that side of her don’t have any friends. The truth is Amu’s other side is probably as far from me that you’ll ever come. Which is really sad, ’cause I’d love to really be able to tell people what I really ment, thinks and feel instead of just nod and follow the stream like I’ve done most of the time. But I’m seriously afraid to speak up, I’m afraid to tell people what I mean, and I’m generally scared of not being accepted by people.
The last weeks has not been easy for me, and even though my last joy entries had a happy-sounding-feeling, well then that has not been how I’ve really felt. I don’t know what have happend to me, but I just don’t feel any joy in life anymore. Okay, that sounds really depressing, but it’s true. I’ll start at the begining so people won’t think the worst.
I started at my new school in August, and I was so ready to start all scratch again, and make lots of new friend and meet lots of new people. Basicly, I was topmotivated for a new year and did smile most of the time. You probably remember the post I wrote once in september ”The fact” where I wrote that I was so happy with my new school and that most of my classmates was almost like me, and I felt like life just was moving forward. One month after that post is the situation completely different. Of course I’ve gotten to know people, some of them pretty good too, but not in the way I’d hope I did. We do still have the same gang as we did then, and we’re still eating together in the breaks and stuff, but right now..*Sigh* Well, I feel like I’m more like a burden to them than a equal friend. Than I’m like a big package they gotta move around and that it’s gotta be with them no matter what. I have no idea when this happend, if there is anything I’ve said or done or something. Though it would not suprise me, ’cause I can say and do the stranges things. My only real friend (We’ve been like friend since 2nd grade) often tells me to stop and such, beacuse she actually gets embaressed by me. I mean what do I do wrong? I’m just trying to be myself, but that does obiously not work. Do I have a really strange character that nobody but myself have. I’ve tried to fit in many times too, but I don’t feel confortable with that either. It just ends up with a dead silence, since I don’t know what to talk about..
I really don’t know what to do now, it’s feel like that no one accepts as me as me. *Sigh*
These things makes me unmotivated to do anything else than to be on my own, and not even things I used to do alone is fun anymore. I don’t enjoy singing, fandubing is not funny anymore, not even to chat on the net, because I’m so afraid that I might say something wrong or that I won’t find anything to talk about. Right now do I even consider to not attend ”Desucon”, a norwegian con for anime/manga/japan-fans this Saturday. After all will I travel there all by myself, what if I don’t find anyone there to talk to and will just end up by walking around like a complete idiot all day. Which is a situation that probably would happend, since i’m also a person that never really takes contact with people I don’t know though to the reasons I’ve written above.
I hope these feeling I have now is just a certain phase I’m going through and that I hopefully will find my place at school and in the world (That sounded so grown up ._.) Right now I just feel like a completely jurk that spills my feeling around on the internet, I need to pull myself together now and stop. The only thing I really want is to show the real me. Where is my Shugo Chara now, when I really need her?
Yes! I love vacation! or vacation or vacation, at least it’s one week away from school, and that’s good enough for me. Even though it’s almost over.. Just one day of freedom left.. *Sob* Well, I guess I gotta enjoy what’s left.
Today have I spend like a total lazy bum XD Woke up at 12:00, but was to tired to get up until 13:00 (Come on, I DID stay up til 04:00 yesterday, and I’m a girl that needs lots of sleep and I have vacation after all, so it can’t be counted as a SUCH big crime, right? >_<)
After that did I figure out that I should probably pull my
self together and record some things that I’ve should have done weeks ago. The first one was a duet from the Barbie movie, ”The princess and the pauper”, ”A girl like you”. If you don’t know it, go and look it up (And don’t care about that it’s Barbie, the song is freakin’ sweet XD) *I command you* It was then that I discovred that my throat was totaly killing me. I thought I was over that stupid cold from last week, but it seems that it had attacked me again. Curse that one U_U But the point was, I had promised the girl I should do the duet with that I should have it recorded by saturday.. which was today XD (After all, I promised her to do a duet back in the beginning of september, so it’s my fault that I haven’t done it before) So I managed to force my voice to do that song and well, the result came out decent I guess, not great, not suckishish but decent. I will have it posted on youtube by tomorrow. ://
After that did I really want to try the song ”This is me” from the new Disney Channel Original Movie ”Camp Rock”. I was probably affected by the fact that it was the song that my brother had been playing from his room since early that morning (Okay, day then, 13:00 can’t probably be counted as morning XD) And besides, this song was a great song to work on the fact that I can’t use my headvoice all the time, I gotta use my breastvoice a lot more. Haha XD I can’t believe that I even tried that song, I gotta be nuts, I mean IT’S HORRIBLE! IT’S SO HARD! DX But I think I manage to do it quite well. And one funny thing was that my brother was so freakin’ tired of listening to me when I killed the boy part that he offered to do it himself. That did really shock me! I mean he’s 12. And most of the time home does we hate each other, and screams to each others and say evil things and.. Well you get it. But I just shruged and left him alone to record for some minutes XD I dunno if I’ll post this on YouTube but I’ll at least post the mp3 here. So enjoy me and my brothers duet (But keep in mind that I had a cold.. XD And that I’m breathless at the start) It’s on norwegian btw, and I may have overdone the effects itsy witsy XD And I probably used my headvoice to much U__U
Right now will I watch ”Paris Hilton’s new BFF” on mtv.com XD Not that I care a thing about that blond bi***. I can’t actually believe that I’m going to watch that voluntary. But I’m just to curious to see whta kind of crap that slut has manage to create this time. Well, at least I’ll get proabbly laugh pretty hard of it 8D I’m already looking forward to it! XD
I’ll list some of them here:
